Not Too Shabby

Good Day Folks,

Man, I am sweating and tired, yet refreshed! I just jumped rope for what seemed like forever and feel like I really got a good work out! I was researching it, and it really is a great exercise. Burns a lot of calories and makes you feel like a kid again.

A strong, tough, wine-drinking kid.jump rope

How was work you ask? Freaking chill. Got my work done and got the hell out of there. Arrived home just in time for a workout and blog. Nothing too crazy happening except the fact that today is turning out to be an exceptional day. That’s the crazy part. Who has good Mondays these days?

No one.

[I need to go to the grocery store and buy more lemons for my lemon water!! Eff!]

The daily struggle hasn’t been too real today. The emotional struggle is still there, but it’s getting better.
I found out I can end my lease early in my apartment complex if I want to just change units, so that’s exciting. Thinking I’ll take her up on that offer and check out what they have available. I do love my loft so maybe I’ll just move to another loft? But the 1+den is promising as well. Weird that the bathroom isn’t in the master bedroom though, it’s connected to the den.

But the price would be well worth that sacrifice so we shall see. We shall see.

I need to go soak in the tub and get my life together. Hollaaaa.

6/28/15

I had this long, 5 or 6 paragraph post written and just deleted it all.

After reading it, I realized I was reacting to some emotions that I need to just pray about.
I am working on building myself to be a better, centered person. To not react to everything and think about it first. To not only see what information has been thrown to me, but see beyond that. To see how or why this situation occurred. I honestly just want to be happy and filled with love. Truly happy.

I’ll continue to ask God each night for inner peace, love, guidance and understanding.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

Proverbs 14:29 
Whoever is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who has a hasty temper exalts folly.

Here I Am

Behind my beliefs is where I stand
Where the storm blows me is where I land
Being the relief was not planned
Yet here I am

Searching for validity in everyone’s truth
Being a role model for the minority’s youth
Eye for an eye, my teeth for one tooth
And here I am

Working each day as if for sport
Earnings worth a gallon, getting paid a quart
On the government’s covert mission with no abort
Here I am

Accused of not having enough gratitude
For not graciously accepting more attitude
Meanwhile, no one understands the magnitude
That here I am

I love too much or not enough it seems
I’m either perfect or awful, one of the extremes
My heart has played on too many teams
Here I am

I’m waiting for that big exhale
From figuring out the holy grail
Of life’s biggest fairy tale
So here I am

I kneel, bow, meditate and pray
Mulling over what instincts to obey
Patiently waiting for a new day
There I go

6/1/15

Dude, we’re halfway through the year! How crazy is that?! And it all started on a Monday…

Today wasn’t so bad actually. I feel productive. Got through work, made dinner, took care of some business. Pretty legit day. Not much to complain about. I’m trying not to complain about much anymore. It’s actually a lot easier to get through the day and end on a positive note when you’re not complaining about things lol.

Sidenote: My boyfriend and I have kittens and they are freaking crazy. They run around, do flips, and act like dogs. We are so blessed LOL. One is named Queso because she’s orange and the other is named Johley. Queso is the ring leader and just destroys anything in her path. She will jump on annyyything and attack. Cracks me up. Johley is just dumb sometimes and will be walking one moment and then just flop to the ground and play the next!

They’re calling me now…and so is my bed 🙂

Good Night.

C.S.