Information Overload.

Sometimes I feel like I am just so overwhelmed with information. It’s like every time I get ‘stuck’ or have a hard time with something, I try to find the solution online somewhere.

I have a feeling I’m not the only one, but it’s hard to think beyond that.

Take sleep training the kids, for instance. We have had ups and downs with getting the kids to sleep in their own beds. I thought maybe if I bought some magical or perfect item off Amazon that had amazing reviews from other parents who swore by it; that would be the key to keeping them in their beds.

My dumbass failed to even think of my parents and their parents and their parents and so on. They didn’t have any of this shit!

But I bought it anyways. Several things. And at the end of the day, the only thing that proved to work was a combinations of bribes (For my daughter) and being consistent with returning them to their rooms after they’ve come into our room. Eventually they realized that no matter how many times they got up and came to mommy and daddy’s room, they always ended up right back in their room.

It was great, I felt accomplished. But it didn’t last very long, we got tired lol but at least we know what works.

I mean, sure; I still bought them some glow in the dark stars to put on their ceiling to see if that worked, too (jury’s still out).

I just wish I didn’t feel this automatic pull to Googling whatever issue I’m having and use my own creativity first. I used to come up with my own decor inspiriation all the time, but now I’m finding myself installing and uninstalling Pinterest every few days. It’s a tiring cycle I’ll tell you that lol

But even just admitting this is giving me some peace of mind and gaining back a bit of confidence that I kind of know some things and can manage on my own. Sure if I want to learn how to build rocket ships, I’ll watch a YouTube video. I’m just going to be a lot more conscious of what I rely on my on wits for vs the Googs.

365 DoK: Day 9 & 10

Day 9

I was on my way home, after staying a little late at work one day. I was almost home when I saw that traffic was backed up because of a wreck.

Of course cars were trying to get over and merge, and Houston isn’t the greatest at merging. Well, one car was really trying to get over, the right way, blinkers and everything.

So I decided to be nice and let them over since no one else would!

Day 10

Today, I want to recognize my husband for doing something so kind.

I wanted some Snickers ice cream, so he went to Walgreens to grab a box.

When he got home, he told me there was a man with his son, asking someone for money. They could have just said no, but they were rude and obnoxious about it.

Well, the man ended up asking Johnny, as well. Instead of giving the man cash, which he didn’t have any on him, he bought the stuff the man was trying to pay for.

Apple juice and cheezits for his son.

Melted my heart. I’m so happy I married someone who can empathize and give. He helps me be kinder on my meaner days lol

Keep spreading love, y’all.

Growth

Premature thoughts provoke inadequate ideas of self-realization and understanding.
Becoming well-versed in all tongues of sanity keeps the mind alive and the spirit intact.
Knowing that what has already happened determines what will happen next is the beauty and the beast of growth; rooted in history, watered with  knowledge, lighted by innovative ideas and forward thinking decisions.

Finally

I used to always think that some of the people I knew were so lucky because they would go out and have fun. I’d see pictures and hear them talk about their crazy nights. I would think they were so cool, lol.

But why?

Because they were doing what they wanted to do. They had priorities and shit just like me (kids even) but wouldn’t let that keep  them from doing the things they wanted to do. I would think “damn these people are immature and need to grow up and get their shit together” while secretly envying them and all the fun they had. 

Well finally I have been doing things that I want to do. I have been going out to random local events and hanging out with friends. I know that there are things that need to be taken care of, like making sure all my bills are paid, working on my music business stuff, etc. But honestly, there is always going to be something that needs to be taken care of or some business to attend to. I need to take the time out to tend to myself and do things that I want to do and not just what I have to do. 

I’m not saying I’m going out every night getting drunk and being reckless. I just find myself saying yes to going out more rather than worrying about all the shit I need to do. And you know what? I feel like I have more time to take care of business. I mean at least it feels that way. Maybe it’s because I’m not as stressed and am happier and don’t mind the time and energy needed to handle business because I know I have had my fun, too. 

In any case, I had a great past two weekends and look forward to the positive momentum going on. Some people suck and try to ruin my fun or bail when I invite them. but I still have a wonderful time. It can be me by myself or just my boyfriend, whoever. I enjoy the leisure time that I’m lucky to have. 

Just got done cleaning my apartment. Like CLEANING cleaning. I’m tired as hell but have a #ROCKETS game to watch 🙂

Drop me a comment and tell me something that you like to do on the weekend or something that you’ve always wanted to do. Maybe I can do it for you, haha!!